So I was giving a presentation today for a field school and I was asked to do a TV interview. The guy who was suppose to do the interview was having a baby today so they asked if I could fill in. But they told me a few minutes before the camera man put a camera in my face and I was very flustered. I was hoping they wouldn't use the footage they had of me because they interviewed a couple other guys and I felt like I didn't answer the questions well enough.
Turns out they did use my footage and the first time watching it I thought I did absolutely horrible. My voice sounded weird, I said umm a lot, I was blinking a lot and my explanations could have been so much more clearer. I didn't sound really confident in my answers. So overall I'm not feeling very good about my 60 seconds of fame. But I had taped it so then I call my parents and Skyped with them so I could show them my interview. They said they thought I did really well and I was being too hard on myself. After watching it a second time I felt like my complexion looked really good, and they had the top third of my body so weight wise I looked pretty good. And after really hearing what I had said, it wasn't totally wrong, it just could have been more right. I wish it had gone a little differently, but I guess this isn't the worse thing that could happen to me.
Our personas convince us that there is nothing that we don't know about ourselves -- that we are in fact the person we see in the mirror and believe ourselves to be. But the issue with this is that once we have bought into the story of 'this is who I am,' we shut the door on any other possibility and deny ourselves access to all of who we can be. We lose our ability to choose, because we can't do anything outside the confines of the character we're playing. The predictable persona we've constructed is now in control. We become blind to the immense possibilities for our life."
Debbie Ford
You are definitely being too hard on yourself, but that is human nature, no matter how prepared you could have been you still would hace criticized yourself. You were great and looked great!
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