I'm feeling better about the doubts I had before. Every time I'm with Nice Guy I'm so peacefully happy. Yesterday, he made me blueberry crepes from scratch for breakfast and then we went to this old church that only has a service once a month. It doesn't have electricity or running water so they heat it with a wood stove and bring buckets of water in when they have a service for coffee and tea afterwards. It was really cute.
Then we went fishing in a river and I got some amazing pictures, there was even a little waterfall/spring thing. We had a picnic there and he had made fried chicken from scratch the night before with garden salad and cherries and even brought wine glasses for bubbly juice. He makes a really cute face when he's fishing, like he's thinking hard about catching the fish, which is harder in rivers because you aren't allowed to use bait.
Then we went to a little lake to fish since it was a stocked lake and you're allowed to use bait. So he let me cast a couple times and I mostly laid on the blanket and read a book and he would come sit with me and talk as he waited for the bell on his line to ring. It was just a really good day.
When I got home last night I get a text from him saying "Just wanted you to know... you really are my "sunny day". So glad your mine :) Thanks for today". We both sing along to country songs in the car. And he really likes holding my hand. So for now I'm really happy. We'll see if my doubts come back after my high wears off...
Our personas convince us that there is nothing that we don't know about ourselves -- that we are in fact the person we see in the mirror and believe ourselves to be. But the issue with this is that once we have bought into the story of 'this is who I am,' we shut the door on any other possibility and deny ourselves access to all of who we can be. We lose our ability to choose, because we can't do anything outside the confines of the character we're playing. The predictable persona we've constructed is now in control. We become blind to the immense possibilities for our life."
Debbie Ford
That sounds like a truly amazing day! We dont always have to have such heightened emotions to feel something, remember that.
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